Yup...it's that time of my life again. Im changing my dA account. So, if you want to add me, this will be my new home. :3



I dont have anything set up just yet, but Im going to have some new stuff up soon. Maybe even a lot of photos and of course new drawings. : )

Note: I didnt notice this until just a bit ago, but I misspelled Silver in the user name. I should have checked that before, but didnt. Sorry peoplez!! D:

Well, that's all I believe. I have to work on my new account and draw new things for it. :3

Wow... Yeah... I got nothing really... Im just awake at 5 in the morning. I havent had any sleep for the past few days and I need to go to a meeting today and then a band meeting on Friday. Plus, I have photos that I need to edit before my "boss" kicks my ass and never lets me sing again... And he might not pay me with kisses anymore. *shifty eyes* What!?! If you knew how soft his lips were then that is all the payment you would need too!!! Sooooft.

Really, Im just bored and I havent been here in a while so I thought I would at least update my journal since I dont have any art. Which sucks cause I need to upload something cause I havent in almost like what? A YEAR?? o..0;; Sad, right?

Anyway, the update is that Im doing well and Im still trying my best to get by in life. Yeah, thats it. :3

Wow, Im in a pickle here... I have this GREAT boyfriend who will do just about anything for me and even when Im looking all sloppy and warn out, he still tells me that I look cute... > . >;; Which is kind of scary. Specially since he says that he wants to marry me. The thing is... I dont see myself with him for much longer. He is really nice, but I just dont feel that deeply for him. Everyone though, is telling me that we look so good together and that we make the perfect couple... I just dont see it though. I dont feel it...

Here is another thing... I have feelings now for someone I didnt notice for the past 5 years... He is one of my closest friends and Im not sure why it is just now that Im feeling something for him. I know that he would take a bullet for me... He has ALWAYS been there in the shadows looking after me too... He told me that he tried to go out with me before, but I dont remember him asking anything like that... But then again... I dont remember most of yesterday. > . >;; Only that I went to school and then went over to his house and stayed there for the night. (No! It's not what you think! I dont believe in sex before marriage.) We had watermelon!! : o It was good too!

Anyway, Im just not sure what to do right now. If you think you can help then do give me some advice. *nods*


In other news:
Im thinking of picking up on doing charms for money. I have always wanted to do them, but never got around to doing them. They are super cute and I know lots of otaku that would like to buy some. ^ ^

I find myself smiling even though my grandma is dying, I have no job and my schooling is slipping... I have a boyfriend who will do ANYTHING for me just about and Im having so much fun with my friends even though there are a few that I want to beat over the head with and ugly stick. xD

School:
I guess I just havent found my path. You know what I mean? I tried going through Fashion first and right now Im trying Graphic Design and soon I will be trying Cosmetology. Im very sure that I will make it through this one. Hey! Im only 20 so I have a while before I have to get really serious about life... Besides, for four years I kept myself in my room. I was hiding for no reason and so Im making up for lost time. lol

Grandma:
She is up there in age and so her body is giving out. Ok, dont get me wrong, Im sure that I love her deep down someplace, but I wish she would die quickly. She is suffering and so is the family. They are doing all they can to keep her comfy and keeping up with their own lives. I just stay out of the way 'cause, when she does die, I know their is going to be a huge fight about who gets what and who doesnt get what. Im just not into that kind of fighting. *sighs* Oh well. More power to the idiots of my family.

Job:
I need one. What else can I really say? I do know of this one place that is hiring. I just need to take in the application. :3 So other than all that, Im doing so well and Im in a very gooooooood mood.

Tomorrow is a special day. It's my Mommy's birthday. She hasnt ever had a REAL birthday party so my sister and I decided to throw one for her. I'ts going to be a happy day cause I wont be running all around with my friends, but staying at home with my family.

Today, I was on MySpace and I was on one of my close friends' profiles and she had this as her quote,

"There Comes A Point In Your Life When You Realize Who Matters, Who Never Did, Who Wont Anymore, And Who Always Will. So Dont Worry About The People In Your Past, Theres A Reason Why They Didnt Make It To Your Future."

I can't help but to think that this is the truest statement I have ever read in my life. It's a quote I thought I should share with everyone here and Im going to be doing some art that will be surrounded with this kind of theme.